Muahaha.

I really have nothing to say.  I hate to read blogs that are words, words and more words.  But?  I have no pictures.  Lol

Sat alone in lecture today because I felt like sitting at the back.  Munling skipped lessons so I just sat in a corner and?  Didn’t listen to the lecturer.  She is sooooo slow.  But I brought my tut so I did my own work and thank God I didn’t fall asleep!  First time I’ve stayed awake during Calculus (Y)

School tomorrow…  Collecting my test script tomorrow.  Hmm.

Going to mess around with my organiser and sleep early (:

There’s something wrong with me today

I bid LJ farewell today, but I haven’t told anyone about lah.cc;;  I’m not ready for people to judge my take on school, meh.  Everyone is so judgemental.

Today…  Today I studied.  But tbh, I am utterly taken aback by my inefficiency.  3 hours of studying and I completed 8 math problems.  It’s totally unacceptable, don’t you think?  I think it is.

Uni tomorrow reads a one hour tutorial, short meeting with the prof to collect my paper, and 2 hour lecture.  All with a total of 7 hours of breaks in between.  I hate the timetable terribly, but I intended to go for the whole 830 to 1830 school day.  Then suddenly my mum tempts me with skipping lecture so that my day is shortened by 9 whole hours.  Being the weak ol’ me, I got tempted and started becoming determined to skip the lecture.  Then she starts telling me I shouldn’t be skipping lecture and that skipping lectures will make me do badly.  My mood just snowballed downwards from there.

I’ve skipped alot of classes since school started.  I thought it was okay.  Undoubtedly, there was voice in me saying, ‘No, gillian, this is not right.’  I ignored it.  Last week, I told myself I would stop skipping classes.  I didn’t go to school on Friday.  I know I’m missing out on things.

My lack of self discipline is getting from bad, to worse.  I tell myself I’ll sleep early, I tell myself I won’t skip school, I tell myself I’ll exercise, I tell myself I’ll stop spending so much time on the computer.  I tell myself a lot of things, but they never work out.  I tell myself I’ll mature my faith in God, I’ll do my Bible studies diligently, but I never do.  It never happens.  I just feel myself and my faith faltering.  I’ll feel upset, but I won’t do anything about it.

And I always blame this machine on which my fingers are tapping away.  All the time.  But again, I don’t do anything.  I allow it to suck me into the world of procrastination.

I don’t know, but I think I need to change the way I live my life :/

How I’m going to do it is another question altogether.

You know what?  I’ll probably forget my troubles by tomorrow, and continue living my unproductive live filled with insecurities about myself.

I’m leaving blogging on LJ for awhile now, I think.  Because everytime I blog I feel like I’m flooding my f-list’s pages and that they don’t really want to see my post.

Especially when I’m not happy and want to complain about school like now.

But I’m not going to complain now.  For now, I’m going to get ready to go to school at 330 for a 2 hour matlab session which is TOTALLY USELESS AND I HATE D:  Yeah.  Angsty angsty.

I’ll try my best not to skip school this week..  Yeah.

Well hello again lah.cc, I really need an outlet to rant :P  Thank you.  Muahahaha.

Lab report /cries.

Should I stay back in uni to study today?

but i’ve moved back to livejournal again.  haha.  & for all you know, i may come back here within the month.  har.

These are the cutest cars on earth! ♥

Ah FT ISLAND concert in msia today, i’m feeling excited for the lucky fans over there okay D:  && the fan accounts of the fanmeeting ytd at msia sounds so extremely exciting :3  like i randomly came across some ftisg people’s blogs & asdfghkl, sounds so exciting.  haha.  one hugged wonbin, another hugged jonghun, aye there’s just so many thingums about fans + hongki / minhwan (!) / jonghun / wonbin / jaejin (!).  but i know i’ll never be crazy enough to be so crazy over stars.  haha.

ay like the other time i read people’s blogs about dbsk @ msia and i felt like urh, turning back time & going too.  lmao.

anyw.

i saw this ♥ yunho video on imop.wordpress & uh!  yes it’s a good video, & it’ll make your yunho-meter go up.  HA.  yes pray yunho, pray :)  here’s the video - yunho praying! ♥  

&& another few of my favourite videos;
♥ MINI DBSK. yess mini junsu, inhwan is super ahdorable. & mini jae! hahaha the way he showed jae his “proof”!
♥ JAEJOONG & HIS EIFFEL TOWERS haha jaejoong you dork. i want those eiffel towers too. i know meigui has one D:
♥ DBSK & DOLLS this video just made me rofl. they’re so cute & excited over the dolls!

♥ DONGHAE SINGING SANTA CLAUS IS COMING TO TOWN idk why, but i love this vid
♥ one of my many starking eps w suju basically, any variety show w superjunior is extremely funny so yes. i can watch them for hours :/

♥ FTISLAND SINGING THAT THING YOU DO ON INKIGAYO i love this song, because it reminds me much of anderson
♥ FTI- 1st live in msia greeting lmao super cute, their english is hardly comprehensible but still! you can make out what it says!

i don’t have much fti videos yet so & i ALWAYS forget to favourite my favourite videos. uh. yeah

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i heard that papa didnt sleep the entire night because some airplane was grounded in singapore & couldnt take off so he was trying to solve the problem.  aiyo.

okay, i rly have to do econs now D:

&Jasmine; hahaha i can never ever like econs D:  chemistry is so much better.  yes we’re at totally opposite ends.  haha :/

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Lastly;

have fun in msia (i want an fti pentastick D:)

Had to leave the concert early D:  missed out on combined band/encores.  It’s impossible to hail a cab from raffles place too -.-  I walked around for like 20 mins and gave up so I took the train.  Uh reached Mama’s birthday dinner at Paramount hotel and asdfghjkl shouldn’t have gone :(  Because nothing much happened & dinner ended already.  Sigh.

Anyway.  I have decided that, I shall save up for a DS Lite & AADBSK2!  Haha.  AADBSK2 sounds quite worth it, since there’s so many dvds, and eng subs!  Haaaaa. 

Ey so much homework to do this weekend :(  I hate, la.  Econs most probably got a U grade.  So my results is rly extreme, AAU -.-  HORRIBLE.  damn econs.  4 bleeding essays to write this weekend.  Urgh.  Ah crap, I hate econs to the end of the world I tell you -.-

I’m so tired I fell asleep from 1am to 2pm last night -.-  Stupid.  Sleeping is such a waste of time.  Aish I’m so fed up & irritated now >:(  TSK.  I hate school.  Whats the point of studying econs too, it’s not going to help me in my Chemistry AT ALL.  Ah screw economics.

On a lighter note, hello wookie! (:

I saw the jaejoong hamtaro pyjamas on a online shop.  Super cute but it’s not like I’ll wear it so I’m not getting it.

& I’m broke too ):  I wish money falls from the sky.

Everybuhdee say hellooooo to Massu ♥ hah.

AH hahaha i think it’s psychotic that i have an “economics” folder under my favourites. lol whatev.

news’ weeeek (i can never rmb how many ‘e’s there are!) is another happy song & i like happy songs hahaha.

i just went to check mise’s website again and……. Ah I didn’t know AADBSK2 came with english subs?! -.- i have been living under a rock but still, I CANNOT AFFORD IT GAH. gohsuzhuang you………………………….. buyitforme! lol.

i want the flower boys set also :3 but i can’t afford it either. lmao, i need to start working. SM is throwing stuff at us to buy like, non-stop. horrid. anyw flower boys is rly special because that’s how i got to know super junior. nyahaha yay ♥

k 5:47. i feel accomplished i finished my econs essay (nvm the fact that it was due ytd). math & chem then, school D: but math & chem is easy to finish. yay.

i want to go to the FT island concert at sunway lagoon justcometosingapore,laaaaaaaa. & bring super junior with you.

ohyes! dongbang is performing at hollywood bowl! & so is suju-t! D: i want to be american all of a sudden. lmao maybe i should ask aunty leefong to go for me & bring all 11 of them back :/ haha what rubbish.

kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. do your chem & math, stop thinking about them. nyahaha.

ss501’s thank you for waking me up is, funny. haha okay stopstop.

HOPELESS! i’mliketalkingtomyselfhere D:

I HAVENT FINISHED MY ECONS ESSAY UH.  my goodness -.-  i only managed 3 pages so far, out of the 4 due (k la 2 qns :/) because chem tuition left me dead ytd.  urh.

i’ll never be able to grin at my econs like this cupcake :O gosh. i haven’t baked in, forever D: ah.

anyway!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OHWONBIN ♥

I hope you & FT island have fun at msia! (did i mention that their greeting is the cutest thing on earth :3)  & thank you for being older than me so that I don’t feel like a paedophile.  HA.

kkkkk i rly need to go to school now!  i shall do econs during lecture.  oh no this is bad -punches self-

yes i know, i feel like sitting in a corner doing just that too D:  school is so hard!

ah econs econs econs.  i have to work triply hard to just pass it, la :(  so upsetting.  although i havent got my econs back.

A for math & chem.  glad but to tell the truth, not enough.  because being in innova, somehow i’m never contented with an A because the paper standard just, isn’t there.. sometimes.  oh well!

I HATE THE ALEVELS AH THEY’RE FREAKING ME OUT OOOOOH.

kkkkkkkkkkkkkkhhhhhhhhhhhhhh econs essays D:

 anyway today was ahma’s birthday.  HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥

school tmrw.  homework’s gonna start coming in already.  GOSH.  aiyahhhhszx.  and getting tests papers, i presume.  omo omo.

haven’t watched videos at all today.  zzzzzz.

i hate keynesian’s theory >:( blaaaah.