Nothing compares

I just felt like blogging, so hello.

Muahaha.

I really have nothing to say.  I hate to read blogs that are words, words and more words.  But?  I have no pictures.  Lol

Sat alone in lecture today because I felt like sitting at the back.  Munling skipped lessons so I just sat in a corner and?  Didn’t listen to the lecturer.  She is sooooo slow.  But I brought my tut so I did my own work and thank God I didn’t fall asleep!  First time I’ve stayed awake during Calculus (Y)

School tomorrow…  Collecting my test script tomorrow.  Hmm.

Going to mess around with my organiser and sleep early (:

Hmph.

There’s something wrong with me today

I bid LJ farewell today, but I haven’t told anyone about lah.cc;;  I’m not ready for people to judge my take on school, meh.  Everyone is so judgemental.

Today…  Today I studied.  But tbh, I am utterly taken aback by my inefficiency.  3 hours of studying and I completed 8 math problems.  It’s totally unacceptable, don’t you think?  I think it is.

Uni tomorrow reads a one hour tutorial, short meeting with the prof to collect my paper, and 2 hour lecture.  All with a total of 7 hours of breaks in between.  I hate the timetable terribly, but I intended to go for the whole 830 to 1830 school day.  Then suddenly my mum tempts me with skipping lecture so that my day is shortened by 9 whole hours.  Being the weak ol’ me, I got tempted and started becoming determined to skip the lecture.  Then she starts telling me I shouldn’t be skipping lecture and that skipping lectures will make me do badly.  My mood just snowballed downwards from there.

I’ve skipped alot of classes since school started.  I thought it was okay.  Undoubtedly, there was voice in me saying, ‘No, gillian, this is not right.’  I ignored it.  Last week, I told myself I would stop skipping classes.  I didn’t go to school on Friday.  I know I’m missing out on things.

My lack of self discipline is getting from bad, to worse.  I tell myself I’ll sleep early, I tell myself I won’t skip school, I tell myself I’ll exercise, I tell myself I’ll stop spending so much time on the computer.  I tell myself a lot of things, but they never work out.  I tell myself I’ll mature my faith in God, I’ll do my Bible studies diligently, but I never do.  It never happens.  I just feel myself and my faith faltering.  I’ll feel upset, but I won’t do anything about it.

And I always blame this machine on which my fingers are tapping away.  All the time.  But again, I don’t do anything.  I allow it to suck me into the world of procrastination.

I don’t know, but I think I need to change the way I live my life :/

How I’m going to do it is another question altogether.

You know what?  I’ll probably forget my troubles by tomorrow, and continue living my unproductive live filled with insecurities about myself.

Hello.

I’m leaving blogging on LJ for awhile now, I think.  Because everytime I blog I feel like I’m flooding my f-list’s pages and that they don’t really want to see my post.

Especially when I’m not happy and want to complain about school like now.

But I’m not going to complain now.  For now, I’m going to get ready to go to school at 330 for a 2 hour matlab session which is TOTALLY USELESS AND I HATE D:  Yeah.  Angsty angsty.

I’ll try my best not to skip school this week..  Yeah.

Well hello again lah.cc, I really need an outlet to rant :P  Thank you.  Muahahaha.

Lab report /cries.

Should I stay back in uni to study today?